I'm ...

I don’t like to wait for people, but I am always late.

I don’t like it when people take forever to reply their emails and text messages, but I always reply late or sometimes don’t reply at all.

I don’t like people who are self-centered, but I always think about myself first.

I don’t like people who are indecisive and can’t fulfill a commitment, but I can never make up my mind and often fail to keep my promise.

Conclusion: I’m what I don’t like?

It's time to take some serious actions about this ...

The Old Times!

Packing, unpacking, … pack again, ..and unpack again – this is the  routine I had in the past few years. From Kingston to TO, from TO to HK, from house to townhouse then to apartment, I can’t remember how many times I have moved.

I “discovered” sth from the past every time I move. This time, it was the MDs. I couldn’t believe the music I listened to in the past … Suede, Oasis, X-Japan, Metallica, etc … I guess back then I was quite a fun and wild guy. The music is great. It fills the dead air in my room, and brings back lots of memories.

Being absorbed by the day-to-day things around me, I have forgotten a lot about my past, the people I met and things that happened. I am the end result of what happened in the past. It might be a good idea to find out what went wrong.

I am going to start a photo album and put all my old pictures together.

Subject: Beautifully Stated

Got this from Michelle from work: 

As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let you down probably will. You will have your heart broken probably more than once and it's harder every time. You'll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when yours was broken. You'll fight with your best friend. You'll blame a new love for things an old one did. You'll cry because time is passing too fast, and you'll eventually lose someone you love. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, and love like you've never been hurt because every sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness you'll never get back.

Don't be afraid that your life will end, be afraid that it will never begin.

P.S I think I'm being nice because I deleted the line which said  you need to send this to 5 people if you want something good to happen ...ops  

Keep running

My nickname at uni was 'time-lag'. It’s a name made up by my housemates because I always took so long to get out of the house for dinner or class. Please don’t be mistaken, I don’t put on make up, and sometimes I don’t even gel my hair before I go out. But before I go to school, I like to kind of visualize what I will do during that day, thus bring out all the stuff I need, so that I am most prepared for anything that could happen.   

Not only I time-lag at school, but I also time-lag during other parts of my life. I don’t like to make quick decisions, or simply put it, I can’t.

Ironically, thinking a lot about every big or small decision I make everyday doesn’t make my decisions all that better. More often than not, I didn’t need the stuff I brought to school, trip or vacation. Moreover, the scenarios I thought I have accounted for often don’t appear in the same way, or they don't appear at all.

This is tiring and frustrating. I want to be pragmatic and decisive. Have one goal and run to it while looking at nothing but my destination. Moreover, I don’t want to carry that bag I pack, that is full of pointless concerns and pressures. One that I should not have packed to begin with.  

There are too many things that are not under my control. At a point, I just need to let go and move on.

Hurt

It hurts more to hurt someone than being hurt ... that kind of experience doesn't happen very often. For what I recalled, I felt like that twice in my life.

When you look back, it seems that things can always be done better. How much can I control? Not that much. If I think I do, I will just end up taking a lot longer to execute - a weakness that I must correct.

Silence can be a true weapon in my settings. Use it wisely.

Enough of BS. Goodnight.